Another day
Another day, another night past, another smile, another tear, another begining, another lost life, another baby born, another new job, another resignation, another redanduncy, another marriage, another divorce, another…….so much another.
Its all new today, despite the pain yesterday, it gets less today. I checked my email, i checked my phone, no communication yet from Steve. Do I call, do i email, do i text…my heart tells me not to, yet it also tells me to…what to do? I do not want to look like I am begging yet, somehow if I am told to I believe I would, because he loved me. It is hard to get a man that loves you. Like mothers always say marry a man who loves you first, not you first, because men do not learn how to love, but we women ,learn how to love. (not exactly in those words but you get the gist 
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All I want is one last chance just one, or was my time out. In some good news, my bro got a job interview. Am so praying for him to get this job, he needs a breakthrough…
In all the madness, in all the hurt, God spoke to me in so many ways yesterday. Not to give up, that he still loves me. That even though I have fallen down so many times he still loves me, and he wants me to hold on, and to keep trying, keep trying to be good, to keep praying. Like the alerbaster box woman in Luke I should not give up but go to him as I am!!!
So another day for me, to wait on him, him who knew me before I was born, who has my name written at the palm of his hand, who is going to show me favour this week…yes it is another day for me!!!
